Hello ownit, thanks for the lovely words. Maybe he is possibly probably... today I read a nice quote " rejection is God protection" and I believe that is very true. I think with all the heart ache I got I was spared something much worse . So what couldnot break me made me stronger. Yesterday while looking into some emails I saw an email I got from H a year ago when I decided to move back with mom and I really wonder If his tone changed or not. He is s very stubborn guy and doesnot show his emotion and would always try to be politically correct. This was a part in an email. But it got stuck with me. I wonder...

"You have always done what you have made up your mind to, and that's a quality you have.

How I live, is very different from how you would want me to live. "

I have seen lots of passive aggressive behaviour in the past. So knowing really his feeling is not easy... it is weird but sometimes rather than feeling good I used to feel partypooper, bossy wife although I don't think I was ( maybe sometimes) . Don't know if that makes sense to anyone.. now 3 years away from him I don't feel that.
Maybe we all changed .

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M 45 H 45
D1 12 D2 9
BD 04/14
Living two different state
Not officially separated