Had a few dips this week in regards to ex and my failed marriage. The beautiful part of this is, I'm very grateful that the dips continue to get shallower and shorter.
A few days ago, I couldnt sleep so I got googley in the middle of the night. I googled my marital home to see if anything new was going on with it. Ive mentioned ex is a snake so I wouldn't be surprised if he tried something shady. I've said that before...... But I don't underestimate this guy. I've seen him in action. Google earth had a new pic of the house and in the driveway in my parking spot was a little black sports car. All his other cars were there so I don't know what/who's car this is.
No mind reading..... But of course the thought of him moving someone in went through my mind and she is better than me in all areas of my life. She's smarter, prettier, more successful, makes more money than me (a HUGE deal to ex) and he is the happiest he's ever been, and he loves her, and she's living my life with my old friends and they all like her better than me.
Clearly, my imagination took over and I spinned and cried myself to sleep. The next morning, I woke up, got out of bed and was so thankful that those sinking feelings had dissipated over night and I was back on track. That by far, is the greatest blessing.
I'm supposed to have a court date on Wednesday. Everything was supposed be wrapped up by now, but we still haven't started. I'm not sure if I'm going to have to show up or if it's going to get rescheduled. Either way, I did get really upset about picturing myself in a court room to finalize this. It's very surreal.
Other than that, things are good. My job is fantastic, I'm in the process of booking a getaway, and I start another 60 day gym challenge may 1. Looking forward to getting stronger- mentally, physically, and emotionally.
That's it for now. Onwards, friends. Enjoy the weekend!
Me- 30's H- 40's T-10 M-5 I moved out b/c he wanted space- June 15 D filed by H: September 16
