Yes, you all put the thoughts and feelings in my head into the words I could not find. That's exactly how I react. When he reaches out, it feels so great, then I overthink it, and realize it's not half of what I would have had in the past from him, and I'm hurt that's it's all he can offer. I don't know how to stop that cycle!! I want to just be able to be happy to hear from him, but not let it affect my emotional thermometer so much. Help me get back on track!! I was almost better off emotionally back in the month or so after BD, when all hope was gone. At least then I felt like I knew what I was facing. I probably need to re-read all the books and beginner's posts. I'm not doing DBing very well.


M-60 H-51
M-14 years
BD 12/26/16
S 1/1/17

"First the pain, then the rising."
Glennon Doyle Melton