Count on ups and downs (III)

[WillDo]

I only come here when I am down. The idea is to not keep my mind engaged too much. But I had a down today.

So today we were out to get approval to have the Ds with us on an overseas trip where W will be attending a course. Initially she was hoping a friend with her kid will be there but that didn't work. I was happy to come along. I will and Ds will come of course off school.

As we were getting back to the train, I said the school was great to keep us all together. Then she said they want her together with Ds. She suddenly said hey don't do anything for the flat. Don't re-rent it. I want to move in. I said don't be ridiculous. Then she said look I talk to a lawyer at hometown. And that given consent.

So she suddenly put a block. Now I kept my cool. Didn't say more than bye. But I felt crap. I am really stuck I don't know what else to change/do. Getting more and more confusing and scary. I try not to believe 50% of what she says. I remind myself the 180 rules.

I don't know what my next step is other than be in limbo.

Thanks for listening.