Dealing with Devastation

[giftd]

Thanks for the reply 25. That post you quoted is from a little while ago. What you say is true. I needed to step up in the marriage and take responsibilities for my problems. I've spent the past 2 months seeing a counselor and making life changes to address my mental health. Working on GAL and am graduating in less than a month. I continue to see the counselor on my own and just switched it to every other week because in her words "you've made such tremendous progress you don't need to see me every week unless you really want to".

I feel more confident in myself and what I bring to the table. I feel like I know who I am and what I want in life, I've made a plan on how to get there. It's really not much different than it was before I've simply "manned up" for lack of a better term. I'm taking charge of the things I can including the animals (medical things and general care), the bills that I have control over, my medical health (eye doctor next week, seeing a counselor), working out and yoga, changed some of my clothes (less college-esque), I'm reconnecting with my outside hobbies (fishing, hiking, gardening) and I'm going to do some clamming soon.

All of this has been good for me, I feel good. But it doesn't stop the days when I just want to cry because she left.