Interacting with my wife is hard. It makes me miss her. If she is mean to me, it's worse.
Don't feel guilty. You are not in a good situation, either. It just seems to be a lot better than some people's. But keep your hope and confidence up, because that will make you cheerful and attractive. I think you have a lot to be hopeful about, too.
A lot of people around here would say to have zero expectations, though. I'm still figuring it out. So take my advice with a grain of salt.
M: 33, W: 30 @BD M 7, T 10 BD: Early Dec W left: Late Dec W got stuff: Late Jan W sent S papers: Mid Feb OM cnfrmd: Late Feb
Pain can yield tremendous growth OR everlasting sadness and bitterness.