WW won't separate

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Yes. I have been working out, lost 15 pounds and am training to do a 5k. I'm playing a team sport with other men once a week.

I'm also working on my relationship with God and trying to learn to pray. More than anything I have been doing this has been the most helpful.

I'm also going to start working with my counselor to reflect on my personality traits and considering how I might improve if i end up moving on someday to another relationship.

In the meantime my situation hasn't changed all that much. My wife has left the MBR but this only works when my son is away at college. He'll be home for the entire summer soon so she won't have anyplace to sleep except with me.

The children haven't been told anything.

I met with an attorney to represent me once we start mediation. Essentially we will be financially ruined after a divorce. My wife was taken aback that I met with an attorney and wondering why I want to push things along so fast!?!? Ugh

I told her this isn't what I want but I'm taking steps to move on. She is still dragging her feet and its more apparent than ever that she is cake eating.

I'm thinking of meeting with a DB counselor as well to help suggest more 180's and coach me through standing up to her, hit me with a 2x4, etc. I'd like to read the DR book. I just wish it was on Kindle. It would be hard to conceal it and try to read it.