You guys aren't going to believe this pt 2

[Sotto]

That sounds like a useful session Thornton and good to be aware of these dynamics..

As for the shame you feel. I see none of what you have posted as shameful - merely human. You may want to have a look at Brene Brown's work on shame, including her two TED talks. Reading and watching her has been life changing for me.

I'm sure this exploration will serve you well, albeit the delving may not be comfortable - but it is necessary I think...

Now for GAL - as you may know, I have GAL with gusto after our separation and I have no regrets on that front. None of my GAL has involved any one on one contact with guys - though I do have some new guy friends. So, I'm not suggesting you date or even think about that. But I am laying down the gauntlet for you to come up with two ideas for GAL this week that you feel you may enjoy...and that would extend your comfort zone a little...