First time here part 2

[leahsue]

Hi everyone,
I haven't posted in a while, mainly because there's nothing really new to update. H calls or texts every few days, and slowly over time little things creep in, (from him) like "I miss you." His big office move is this weekend, so he is crazy busy these last few weeks. He still plans a trip here in May, but no dates yet. I think he'll book his flight after this weekend, once he sees how the move goes. Remember now, this is a guy who has 2 years of community college and since then has mainly done his own labor in owning his own small business, and worked hard physical labor. Now he's in charge of a multi-million dollar budget, and moving an office of 70 employees who work for him, from one state to another. No wonder he's in a MLC. As far as I can tell, from 1,000 miles away, he has done an amazing job, and has the respect of the office, which is to me the biggest thing, but also of the big dogs over him, who took a chance on him to begin with. IMHO, it has come at a huge cost to him, (meaning nearly losing me), but that remains to be seen. ANYWAY, he texted me Monday morning on his ferry ride to work at 6 (5 my time- LOL) and said "Good morning, sunshine. I hope you have a wonderful day. Finally countdown to the big move. I can't wait to come down and see all the neat things you've done to the house." (???) I'm trying not to mind read, but to me that sounds more like, I can't wait to see you- just safer to word it that way. Anyway, the whole Good morning sunshine was like a fresh wind that blew through b/c I had forgotten that's what he used to say all the time. It had been so long since he's said it, that I'd forgotten to even miss it. We will see.
On my end, I've been busy. Still going to exercise~ although I don't think I'll ever really love it~ but I know it's good for me. Meeting friends and going to things- movies, out to dinner, outdoor concerts, etc. And today I contacted 3 volunteer positions that interest me. I go to training session Thursday for Meals on Wheels, but the one that totally captured my attention was a home for children of female inmates. I have said for the last 20 years, when I retire, I want to just find a place to rock babies. Well, in the ad for this place, they actually say- rock babies. I'm in contact with them, so I'm really hoping that will pan out. H texted me at 5 AM today on his way to work, and I was actually awake (reading posts on this forum!) b/c I just couldn't sleep. He said I hope you have a good day and can I call you later. (??? not sure why he had to ask- but anyway) I said sure, and I hope you have a good day. THEN I SAID- I'm starting work today at a home for kids of inmates, so maybe I'll get to finally rock those babies. NO RESPONSE and NO CALL YET. It just dawned on me that although I meant I start a volunteer job, maybe he thought I meant I've taken a job, without mentioning it to him, which would seriously cut into my free time to be available to whatever his picture of the next year may look like for us. It will be interesting to see how this also plays out. Oh well. It's about time he started wondering how my decisions may affect him, instead of the other way around.
Although I haven't posted, I'm trying to keep up with all the regulars and also read up on the new people here. Hang in there everyone. We got this.