Happy birthday! I'm so sorry that it's such low times for you, healthwise and relationship-wise. I haven't read here for a while and was very sad to see that the good R you had for a while, is no more.
My birthday was yesterday. My S day was 1 week before that (a year ago). This year, I celebrated with a new 'family' and had a great time. I didn't even think about the past or experienced any difficult feelings. You will be okay.
Take care of yourself and your heart!
M 16 yrs, WH62, P54 3 adult blended kids EA 11/13, BD1 6/14 PA fall 14, BD2 2/15 Piecing 2015, BD3 12/15 Separated 4/16 WH moved OW in 5/16 Divorced 6/15/17
