Leaving it up to God (I think!)

[Coly23]

Dear Job and Cil, thanks so much for stopping by.

You are both right off course, I need to treat H with kindness as I would a friend who had given us a gift. I did text him to say 'thanks' and I suggested to D that she did the same which she did. I told her that we need to rise above it and not become bitter.

Job - I really don't feel like I am doing very well. I am still so hurt and angry with H and at the same time I miss him terribly. I really need to get a handle on my emotions. I just don't know where all of this is headed. I can't believe he is happier without us but I'm not him so I will never know why he feels this way.

Sometimes I just want to curl up in a ball and simetimes I feel stronger than steel but most of the time I feel in a state of utter confusion.