Leaving it up to God (I think!)

[Coly23]

Thanks for your comments Altair and OwnIt.

I don't know what to do really. D actually said she doesn't want to contact him so should I force her? Maybe I will just say she needs to be polite.

OwnIt, H is actually D's step Dad but he has brought her up since she was about Nine. D's bio Dad hasn't seen her since she was six/seven but he sends her Money in a card for special occasions just like H is doing now that is why I am annoyed. She doesn't need another Dad like that. I'm not sure if he is trying to 'get' to me through D. That would imply he had some emotion towards me and I don't think he has any feelings for me at all good or bad. He just seems numb.

Altair, I have really tried my best to keep my emotions on an even keel and not have any contact with him has really helped. I still have my horrible days but that's just because my mind runs away with me! I'm glad you have started to make your own plans staying still is what keeps us stuck. Are you planning on moving away from the area you are in at the moment?

Journaling - It's a holiday here un the UK so me and D are off to the city to do a bit of shopping. She is shamelessly going to spend the money H gave her! I sometimes wonder if she is actually my daughter!!