WW Help Needed

[codeman]

Just so you all know I have never done anything to try and hurt my W or OM. Heck when she moved her stuff out he came over with her. My family helped them pack up and load her things onto the trailer. I have no anger, animosity or hatred for either of them.

I filed for D because she told me too and I thought my M was over. After finding this site I am more educated as to what is happening and why and I no longer want the divorce. I do question why she doesn't want the divorce now.

I am and have GAL, the 180 and dropped the rope. I am living life now instead of just going through it. I know I will be fine without her. I am no longer sad or hurt. Acceptance of what is. I have confidence that I haven't had for a very long time and I really like myself now. As my sister said, "the funny and crazy Codeman that everyone loves is back". I lost myself somehow and after W left I did a self inventory and found an A-hole that I couldn't look at in the mirror. I am not that guy anymore.

I hang out with my neighbors which I never even spoke to before. I visit family and go to movies all the time now.

As for her hitting rock bottom? I'm not sure how much farther down she can go honestly.

I am moving on with my life but why do I have to put my life on hold?

I haven't contacted her since I told her I wasn't going to be her friend while she is with another man and my actions reflect that.

The house is something I have wanted a very long time. Putting it off is going to be hard to handle but I see your point.

Mach1, how can my words and actions say anything to her if I am not in contact with her? Confusing...

I am to move on with my life but I shouldn't make any emotional decisions?