Eyes on the next curve

[Bird]

Happy Easter to all. I hope you're all able to enjoy the holiday with minimal discomfort from MLC spouse and the choices they've made.

Today reminds me of this past Christmas. So unlike the ways I've celebrated the holiday in the past. Did Easter baskets with the girls and then off to church without H which was the first time that has happened since 1998. Got pretty ready during one of the responsive prayers talking about God bringing his loyal followers to hope from dispair. Came home and H picked up the kids to take to his parents' for Easter dinner 2 hours away so I won't see them until later tonight. I had a peanut butter egg and a xanax and took a 3 hour nap. My various family all had plans of their own today so no Easter dinner here. Thinking about ramen noodles. I looked at tiny hams yesterday att he grocery store but it seemed to ridiculous to make Easter dinner for one.

In other news contributing to my sad mood, today is the anniversary of the first time H kissed me, 4/16/97. I still remember where we were and what I was wearing. I knew right then it was the start of something amazing, and it was for about 18 years. I doubt that the date has even registered in his mind. Well, off to work on the house some more so we can sell it.

I used to love these big family holidays but I think I'd like to just take a pass on them until my life is back on track again. They're too painful to experience right now.