The boys woke up early eager to do their egg hunt and open their baskets. H must have come in the bedroom late because he was in bed when I woke up this morning. Still no goodnight or affection from him but last night I really let it go. Normally I would ask his help with the eggs, hiding them, etc but I didn't. He came in and asked if I needed anything so he helped.
I tried to go through his phone this morning to look for any secret texting apps but his phone was off and I didn't want to risk getting caught. So I'm just going to leave it be. The weekends are really my only chance to go through it because weekdays were both up super early.
My extended family is sick so we're skipping seeing them today. Can't risk anyone in our house getting sick with the baby coming. We may still take out boat out for a bit and grab lunch on the water somewhere.
I've been thinking a lot on if I can go to MC this week or not. Im still in a toss up. I know if I go I will probably end up asking for clarity about OW. I know he's going to bring up a lot of things about me not trusting him etc and I will list the reasons he's given me in the last 8 weeks that make me feel I can't. The C said he did not feel H was talking to or seeing anyone (that doesn't mean it isn't true) but he said all the things he's doing surely need to be addressed and discussed. I'm not sure that will be fruitful right now. I had thought I would go to MC if I could keep quiet and just listen but I'm not 100% sure I can do that.
Is it okay to bring up the concern of OW to the C if we go together? I feel very concerned he deleted her phone call off his call log. It was at lunch time during s work day.
