{{{{{{{2T}}}}}}} I am so sorry about your sister. I hope you and BIL are comforted by your many memories and the knowledge that she is no longer in pain.
Sometimes the best and only thing we can do for someone else is to allow them to move forward on their journey, regardless of what that journey may be.
I think you are right to nurture yourself at this time. You have a lot to process.
thank you for the update ... we are here for you xoxoxo
M 20+ T25+ S ~15.5 (BD) BD 4/6/15 D 12/23/16
"Someone I loved once gave me A box full of darkness. It took me years to understand, That this too, was a gift." ~ Mary Oliver