Oh yes i dont want him back as this person. I just meant is it a lost cause that he won't realize his wrongs and come back to this M.
Well I kept my game face on all day. I'm emotionally exhausted. It's so hard to be positive and happy when you feel so hurt and rejected inside.
I did enjoy the day with my boys and was fine in the moment. It was when I got home took a shower and just had a moment to think. It's been 5 weeks. If something was goi g to be better there would be some type of glimmer of positive by this point.
Im going to continue on tomorrow and be my best self regardless of Hs treatment toward me. he acts so normal around my family. He treats everyone the same except me. I just rolled with it today and didn't pay him any mind.
We all watched a movie together in the living room when it was over I said goodnight and went in my room to make Easter baskets and fill eggs.
I would be lying if I said I didn't feel discouraged. I know you all think I'm nuts but I would just like something. Throw me a crumb or something to let me know you're there. But that's not the reality.
Anyway, easier to vent here and stay positive IRL.
