Looking for a miracle.

[Irish M]

sorry about that.. lol

to continue

This part of downtown is a Wedding/prom/tux main location of clothing. Store after store for a multiple of street blocks. Shoes, purses, hair and nail salons and many great restaurants.

We decided to eat so I took her to an old style diner. When we walked in she said she loved it. Elvis was everywhere. Decor of the 50's.

After eating it was shoe store after shoe store. Bingo we got them. At the cash i see the purses.. jackpot. match the shoes and we are done.

We head back to the dress store , still closed :-(
So I say, lets go try on a few other dresses in case you might of missed something. We do a few shops and she tries them on. She looks amazing. I am taken back a little. My little girls is growing up . fast. then it hits me. Her mom is no part of this. I shake it off and we continue our day.

I know my daughter when she has her heart on something she holds onto that until the end. We head back to that shop and I pray it to be open. We get there and it is open. Yayyy... Once inside she sees her dress and the look in her eyes glows with joy. I ask the clerk if her size came in. She says, yes they are unpacking the boxes now. 30 mins later she is holding the dress. She tries it on and WOW.

lets just say a few women , well all the women there since i was the only daddy in those stores with his daughter were crying because they saw the tears welt up in my eyes.. It was like the day of my wedding , D16 was 9 at the time. She was a flower girl with D14. I balled my eyes out seeing them in there dresses. So happy that mommy and daddy were getting married. That same feeling rushed through me. Nearly knocked me off my feet.

So we pay for the dress, D16 is glowing , so happy. It Was a great day.

This morning I wake up to anger. Anger with XW. Missing all this .
I know it will pass as it always does. But I want to write to her and tell her that I hate her for what she did to her family, to me.. to the girls.

I'm writing it out here so hopefully that urge will pass.

breath Irish... breath..

hope everyone is having a nice Easter weekend.

Irish .