I went and had drinks with a friend after work and had a good time. It was nice to not think about my sitch for a few hours.
I came home and WAW was back to being standoffish. I ignored it and ended up watching a movie and going to bed.
I'm trying my best to detach and to get myself to accept that our R is over and that she is really moving away in a month or two. It doesn't seem real, I'm sure I'm in denial. I just don't see how things will turn around.
I'm also trying my hardest not to blame the entire breakup on myself. I really struggle with that. I know WAW has issues but I feel like I've placed her in a pedestal over the last 10 months because things were really good and she seemed to be onboard this time.
I hate feeling like I'm the one to blame for everything while she gets to tell everyone she knows how awful I am.
