WW Help Needed

[codeman]

Mach1, I can see your point of view.

I only filed the divorce because she said it was over and I was in a state of shock. My head and my heart are at constant odds about my situation. My head says forget her and move on. My heart says stay and fight/work.

Head: Get the divorce because without it you will not be able to buy a house (we've always wanted to buy a house but credit was an issue for us).

Heart: If you go through with the divorce it will send her the wrong message or may close the door of reconciling your marriage.

The hug was a moment of weakness on my part but how do I tell her I can not give her a hug?

I no longer contact her. She does send me texts when she has a doctor visit or prescription she's picked up to let me know how much it was. She has back issues and she is trying to get some treatment before D and her insurance is dropped.

I did ask her on Wednesday if I had given her the flex pay card. She replied immediately as follows...

W-
Yes Why?
I was just thinking how I so miss talking to you

Me-
Ty didn't remember if I gave it to you

W-
Sometimes I feel like I don't know who I am anymore.
I really do miss our talks. It made me feel like I was important to someone. Have a good night.

Me-
you too

I took the above as fishing.

She had everything when she started A, a great job making good money and a new car. OM wasn't working and he is on parole.
Now after starting A and getting involved with OM she started using drugs, lost her job and her car was repossessed. Now OM has job and she doesn't have anything. She was telling me that he mistreats her but she says she deserves that now because of what she did. I'm thinking this was only to get sympathy from me.

I am working on myself and my family. I want to buy a house asap to save money. Rent is very high and going up. Now that I only have my income I am paying the bills but it is tight. My credit is finally where I can buy a house but hers is horrible. This is where the D will allow me to purchase a home.

Is this what I should be doing?
My interpretation of getting a life is "getting my own life without her". Is this right or am I still missing the message?

Thank you Mach1 for calling me out on my flip flopping.