I know you are struggling Lady V and your words about feeling the loss of your higher power reminded me of this poem. I know not everyone views their high power in a religious sense or christian sense. I personally believe in a universal power or truth, but this poem still rings true for me. If it offers you some comfort I am pleased, if not please know you are always in my thoughts. Lots of rainbow tummy love.
"The Footprints Prayer
One night I had a dream...
I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord, and Across the sky flashed scenes from my life. For each scene I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; One belonged to me, and the other to the Lord. When the last scene of my life flashed before us, I looked back at the footprints in the sand. I noticed that many times along the path of my life, There was only one set of footprints.
I also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in my life This really bothered me, and I questioned the Lord about it. "Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, You would walk with me all the way; But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, There is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why in times when I needed you the most, you should leave me.
The Lord replied, "My precious, precious child. I love you, and I would never, never leave you during your times of trial and suffering. When you saw only one set of footprints, It was then that I carried you."
Trust V you are being carried. Hold your faith lovely lady!!
