I am just so upset. I know what's coming. I just feel it.
How can there be any hope? Everything he's doing shows me he's done. How can he do this before a baby comes. There is always hope.
But Asking how he can do this---ever---has no good answer. It's truly not a question with an answer YOU will find peace in. One big regret of mine, among many, is spending too much time on asking why or how.
Without hyperventilating, just slowly let out air and take it in and focus on NOW b/c you have too much else going on.
I know I have to stop talking but I just don't know how to. I'm trying. I really am. I just am so hurt and upset.
I feel by not talking we are just going further apart. the one clear thing to me in your situation is that your talking to him makes things worse 9/10 of the time.
As a woman, I confess that I think your hormones are pushing you more than you are cognitively aware of.
He does NOT want to talk about the marriage right now. You do. He does not.
So you do anyhow. Then it pushes him away further and...and...you want to talk about your m again. You tell yourself that not talking is bad, so that you can talk about it again. And it bites you 9/10 of the time...
So, What do you mean when you say you are "Trying to stop talking"?
I want to stop crying and being upset. I am so over this. I want to feel like I'm doing something to make things better and I can't. sometimes stillness is what we need most. Like when we are due to have a baby.
I don't want to have a baby in this situation. I know...((( )))
It tells me so much about how he doesn't give a [censored] about me for him to do this right now during this time of me having a baby
T0, please figure out a way to stop bringing up the marriage. I'm not sure how you will do that b/c you have been advised about it before, but you really are not helping yourself.
I mean, with or without your h or a recon, I'm just talking about you Not spinning.
There are many times I remind myself to take my own advice. Been there, done that.
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
