T0324, Sandi2 nailed it. I struggle with your same thoughts, not just daily, but hourly! It kills to see your H completely disregard your feelings, your marriage and his responsibilities as a H and father with seemingly no valid reason and no remorse. It is absolutely HIM! You may have played a role in your imperfect marriage, but his choices and actions are NOT your fault! These are HIS sins and, someday, he will have to face them. We may not ever understand what happens on this side of eternity, but know your faithfulness will be rewarded. There are days I'm shocked to find my heart still beating and my lungs still breathing because of the pain...but it's still beating and I'm still breathing. God promises to give us our daily bread. Not our yearly, monthly or weekly bread, but rather just enough to get through each day. Take one day at a time. You are beautiful and you are loved. Be the wonderful mom you are and work on being the best version of yourself possible.
Me 35, H 33 T 10, M 7 D 2 EA confirmed 12/22/2014 H moved out 2/1/2016 Returned 3/18/2016, H gave back my wedding ring 8/3/2016 H became distant 10/24/2016 H Moved out Filed 3/17/2017
