Thanks so much for taking the time and writing a well broken down and intelligent response. Your absolutely correct.
My problem is, I feel like I'm battling two battles. The relationship, which includes reconciliation or not and the second my emotions. I haven't had this much difficulty with these feelings my whole life. Its a real struggle.
So, when you put the two battles together, I tend to lean on someone who has been there for me for close to 23 yrs for support and their not there. They can't be, their the cause. It become a real conflict within ones self.
I have thought through this a 1000x since this happened and know that the problems lies deep within the W. Ultimately she has to get fixed, right? Do I wait, help and support or just bail knowing in the back of my mind theres a good chance the circumstance can repeat itself.
My thinking is now, why should I fight for it and do the heavy lifting when she's at fault and why should I be obligate to have the patience when the odds aren't in my favor?
I hope soon I will find the answer and I know whatever direction I take is risky. A risk I did't ask for or deserved.
