Thank you bttrfly. I feel like I'm doing well w/the contact but there are just those times when it's too much and I need a break.
Tonight W texted me a Zillow link to her grandparents old house w/a crying emoji. It made me step back and look at this. Her grandmother died 9 years ago and her grandfather died 7 years ago, just a couple days before our D was born so she didn't get to go to his funeral, etc. W was his little girl, he took care of her amidst chaos and they were really close. Her grandparents basically raised her until she was an early teen. In hindsight I really think that is when this all may have started. So many changes for us a this time.
I feel bad for her, obviously she's spinning if she's looking up their old house. I looked at it and texted back that I was sorry but that it looked like someone had put some hard work into it, that I thought her grandparents would like to see it how it was now and that I hoped it was being appreciated. She replied "I hope so too." Idk, I didn't have much to post about tonight but this one really struck me w/a glimpse of what's going on in her mind.
