When this happens to me sometimes it helps to go back to the journal I started when it all first happened or the beginning of your own thread and see just how far you've come already.
I think you improved very quickly, giftd, but I'm not sure how much I have improved.
M: 33, W: 30 @BD M 7, T 10 BD: Early Dec W left: Late Dec W got stuff: Late Jan W sent S papers: Mid Feb OM cnfrmd: Late Feb
Pain can yield tremendous growth OR everlasting sadness and bitterness.