I just caught up with your situation, I am so sorry for you. I hope you can feel better soon. I am boiling of rage right now at what your WH said and did yesterday. I do agree with WH's cousin about not trusting him.
He has to figure out what he wants, and right now he went back into full limbo. Don't let him take you back onto that destructive path. Free yourself from the power he has on you. You tried everything and beyond what you could do.
I agree with you that journey affects our parenting, my kids were deeply affected by it. It's not easy to be emotional available for them when we are so frustrated and such in pain. Since we are also the only sane parent, sometimes we are facing tough decisions to protect them. Only you know what's the best for you and your kids, and may be you need to be in a peaceful home without being surrounded by constant stressors to restore not only your emotional well being but also your body. We forget sometimes how powerful the mind is, and how it can affect the body. I was just listening to a podcast this morning about that subject while driving.
You are a great woman and the fact that you are surrounded by several friends willing to step in to help you in that difficult time shows how a loving person you are.
Take that time you have right now, to make a decision, sometimes God send us signs and we are too busy to see them.
One step at a time...
You are in my thoughts. I wish I could hug you in person. He doesn't know what he is missing but we know what he is missing.
Me 52+ WH 57+ Married 20 + Piecing since 2016 (ready to give up...)
