I am sorry you are here. The post below was posted by Accuracy a couple months ago and the best post I have seen in over two years on the board. You are early in the process so I think this may help. Also, read Chris73's thread and realize you can't nice your way back.
Being in this situation...
Don't drink the water. I know it's right there. Don't drink it.
This is a fantastic post and thank you, thank you, thank you. This is the kind of motivation that I really need right now. I am weak, and even though I know I have to be strong, it is an ongoing challenge.