I want to love h. I know I love who he was (and I MUST still love him b/c we were married so long. Right?)
How could 6 months end all of that? But how I feel right now, if I had to use words,
would not be "love."
At the moment it's too painful to say "I love my h", when he's made such personally painful choices to me, and hurt our kids.
It's a choice I hope to make again. I can imagine him being in an accident and me flying up there to help. Writing that ^^ also makes me wince at the moment.
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016