First time post feeling lost and confused

[dodog]

Been a while since my last update. Not really nothing to report been away for a few days playing golf in Portugal. Came back Sunday to which I thought would be myself and the children for 2 days but the w announced she would actually be staying there the Sunday night. Really find it tough being in the same house as her, it's getting easier but it bring up all of the feelings I have for her. She did go out for a while which gave me some time alone with the children and i did have the day with them yesterday. The w has now taken them away until Friday to one of her freiends houwes who I believe is one of the major factors in my w pursuing this divorce. Her friend has never liked me, she is also like my wife from a broken home, so is probably giving her as much encouragement as she can.

I'm at the house for this week alone with the pooch until they return Friday then as it is easter and although it is my weekend to have the children my wife has asked for them on Sunday swing that her and her whole family are big Christian's.

Mediation starts in 2 weeks today. Since she has put her original settlement request up I am now withdrawing ever offer I have made to her and will be starting at the minimum required by law and a 50/50 split of assets. But that's not going to be until at least the 3 session.

Me personally I'm having my up days and down days. More generally happy than I have been and the few days I had away with 11 others certainly helped my mindset just wish it has been for longer.