It takes two to make it work (pt. 6)

[roist]

Hi SBJ,

Thanks for keeping us in your prayers.

As I was leaving she reached out for my hand...nothing big, but that little bit of physical touch sent shivers down my spine. Touch is my top on the 5LL scale. It killedme, but maybe put just enough in my tank tostand for a while longer.

I have two contradictory comments about this statement.There are times in this journey where we use whatever we can to keep going. So if that works for you
, use it.

However I feel it is healthier to have reasons/motivation to stand that is independent of W. Otherwise if she acted differently you no longer have reason to stand. Maybe that touch represented a future connection for you. Being motivated by an eventual new connection is good IMO. It's potential is all that is important at this stage. It's likelihood or timeframe are of lesser importance. Can you achieve that future vision of you two reunited? It can happen but a lot of water may need to pass beforehand. Your motivation to stand will need to be very strong.

Second important aspect of this statement is it devalues you. She gave you a scrap and you made a meal of it. I am fully for enhancing the positive but not to the detriment of your self image.

If the rumours/talk is true of her cheating, then for now you should not want her touch. Even if not, I worry you are too attached for your own good.

2x4 over.

It is good that she felt comfortable enough with you to touch your hand. Many don't.

I know this answer flip flopped a bit. I hope it makes sense to you what I am saying.