It feels like I'm never going to have that again with someone else.
Yep, I feel the exact same way. I used to think it would be exiting learning and discovering someone new (this was during my dark days of my M). Now the thought of that saddens me.
M 55 W 52 MR 32 T 34+ D29 BD May 8, 2016 - She moved out ILYBNILWY May 15 (Through email) No EA/PA August 23 - DB used against me in every way Divorce July 18, 2017 - Life is getting better every day