No this is definately not where I want to be. But I was willing to work on things to make them better.
All of your suggestions are great and I will be talking about those things with T tomorrow night.
I dont know if I ever got over my sister's death. Like I said, I was put in a psych ward for 3 months. My mom was medicated for a year on tranquilizers, my dad started working 80 hours a week to cope. Perhaps this is where my codependancy took root? I felt abandoned not only by my sister (she died instantly in an auto accident at 16 years old), but my parents as well.
Ive been in and out of therapy for years as I developed depression, anxiety, and OCD. I do take medication for these issues as well.
I absolutely do think this has played a role not only in the type of women I choose to date but also my issues with abandonment.
Codependancy is pretty common in my family. My brother (believe it or not) is worse than I am. He literally cannot be out of a relationship. If one relationship ends, he will find another serious relationship within a week.
