Thank you JRuss. Sometimes i feel like i am just going around in circles and I cannot seem to get out.
Sunny, I am always impressed with your strength, confidence, directness, and ability to act and move forward. And its funny I do frequently think of you as an example
I tend to ruminate and obsess. Im wondering if its more of a habit at this point. Like what would I be thinking about if not this? Hmm. Nope got nothing.
This spring I have to come up with other things to occupy my mind and life. That would be healthy. This is what I need to do.
1. Get the divorce finalized. 2. Take on second job of home cares while son is in school, for extra money. This will give me flexibility, a new skill set that is easy to obtain, and supplement my part time job. It will also keep me occupied 3. Start socializing more. I was really lonely this weekend and that leads me to feeling depressed and hopeless 4. Start dating. I felt better about ex and not caring what he was up to when I had someone. It was fun dressing up and being attractive to someone. It was nice having hope. 5. Pursue some interests. I tend to like to do physical things. Now that ankle is mostly healed. Would love to learn to surf and mountain climb and now that son is getting older, I can do that with him. 6. Get back into yoga. 7. Decreased amount of time on these forums. I think newcomers is unhealthy for me.
Things I did accomplish 1. Was able to get great resources for my son. 2. Am back in exercise mode, after my fracture. I have a 5 pound to lose goal. But I am trying to focus more on how healthy i feel rather then on the scale. 5 lbs would in all actuality not be the healthiest or really sustainable and i have to remind myself that I don't have to be perfect.
