I am feeling down today for no reason, too. I think I don't do well with weekends. It might be the same for you, too, since you're wondering what your H is up to. I wonder about mine. Is he going on dates? Does he wonder where I am staying? Is he looking at the empty spaces and are good memories breaking through? Who knows.
I got out with some friends last night and socialized a bit. Some guys chatted me up but I am just not interested and I've never been good at pretending.
I took my dog for a long walk in the park today, since she's been cooped up in my little shoebox apartment. Tonight I will be going to a play by myself and hopefully getting a good night's sleep.
I have received some wonderful advice to check myself any time I feel lonely, because it's probably that I'm feeling rejected or abandoned and I know what happened wasn't about rejection or abandonment. But today it's not helping because I just feel like I miss him. I'll try to remind myself of the "him" I was dealing with in the last few months, because, in truth, my sweet loving guy hasn't been around since mid-January. He was replaced by the angry alien then.
It sounds like you have some wonderful plans. Try to enjoy them. Stay in the present moment! That's what I'm working on doing.
I think we've really hit it off, and I will try to figure out how to send you a private message with my email address, so we won't bore everyone.
