Thank you for sharing your photos w/us. You are a really good photographer and should consider submitting some of your photos to a wildlife magazine.
I, too, am glad to see your lady friend is still around. It's nice to have someone to share thoughts, etc., with.
Keep up the good work.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.