Leaving it up to God (I think!)

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Coly,

I wanted to pop in your thread. oh (((COLY))). I am so sorry for this pain and this loss. Having your H over for dinner sounds exhausting and heartbreaking. It sounds like your D loves you very much and wants you to be happy and you've done well by her. Your H is doing his thing and it has nothing to do with you; I know it's so hard not to take it personally. You are right -- what kind of person does that in front of 80 people? I'm sure he meant it when he said it, but it seems like he is not the person you married right now.

What do you do that helps you when you're spinning? For me, the exercise really helps and the music. I've been reading a lot about the science of happiness and really working to help my brain produce all the happy chemicals. Daily gratitudes, focusing on fond memories, nurturing my good relationships, finding 'flow' when I'm very focused on what I'm doing, bringing my mind back to the present, and trying very hard to practice radical acceptance of what is. It has helped a lot.

I have been thinking a lot about the strength of the LBS. It's amazing how hard we dig and I think there's much to be said for that.