I have forgiven myself but sometimes the regret for what I did to her and to us creep in and breaks me down. I think I might carry that for the rest of my life and I'm ok with that. It is my cross to bear.

She text me this afternoon and asked if she could ask me a question. I said sure like a dummy before I realized it. Then nothing from her. I left my desk for a few minutes and when I happened to look at my cell I see she had called. Yep, I called her back but it rang twice then voicemail. I didn't leave a message and I haven't heard from her since.

Should I go complete NC 100% for sure like scorched earth silence?
I'm like what else can she do to me now right?

M 8 yrs
EA 6/16
PA 09/16
Separated 10/16
WW moves out 11/16
D Filed 11/16, Hearing 05/08/17