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I apologize for the previous rant, I am normally much more calm and put together than that. It really just throws me into fits when I am made out to be the bad guy for giving her space, it almost seems that it drives her nuts when I do my own thing. I am not cold or distant, I just try to occupy my time, and not follow her around the house like a puppy dog. I know the goal is for me to be happier, and I am, but then she freaks and I'm on the front row of her freakin' roller coaster.

To address all of the amazing previous posts:

Tryin-That's a good idea, I will suggest a night with either me or me and S. If she chooses girls night, that's cool, but do I stay home with S? Do I find a sitter and do my own thing? What is the best play here. I do want her to know that I am not going to sit idly by while she goes out, but I also think it may mean a lot for me to watch S, so she can do her thing. Decisions, decisions.

Well played on the mistaken text. I get those sometimes with the I love you, quickly changed to I love y'all. God forbid she give me any glimpse that she may actually love me.


Btrow-You are right, I CHOSE to move past this, at the time she said "I never thought you really loved me, but this proves you do." So forgiving the A (for a moment at least) was the ultimate ILY. Then she proceeded to tell me, she felt like I was only doing it to prove a point....not sure what point, but ok.

Sandi- You are the best. I am fully prepared to work through the forgiveness in stages. The resentment is big for her, she will not admit it, but resentment set up in her heart a long time ago, and has slowly been building, up until this point. I know I am the cause of a lot of that, but can only do so much to rectify it. Most of that is on her, and I am earnestly praying for the softening of her heart, because she doesn't want to forgive as of now.

Thank you all for everything, I can't tell you how much these boards mean.

Be Well
LW