This is a hard long road, but I promise you if you hang in and continue with your process- you will land in a better place than you are or were with your M you mention in your last post maybe your H is attracted to a certain type and not to you anymore
I remember my XH was into church and really looking for a christian girl when we met at that point in his life I met the qualifications for what he wanted and he met mine
Together we had 2 kids, bought a great home, had 2 new cars and a thriving business with employees and he hires a 28 year old secretary .
at 40 he no longer was attracted to me or the lifestyle of being a successful, responsible church going family man..he wanted fun now The 28 kind of sleezy secretary now attracted him and she was fun and into drugs and booze. she represented the fun lifestyle he now craved at 40 so he was attracted to you at a time probably when his morals were higher when he wanted to marry he choose you
now he is not the same and I also would NEVER choose a man like my H in the present he is addicted and living in poverty, no connection to his kids or blood family and possibly unemployed(not sure) not my idea of a a good choice
so you see my point.. you are worth more than what meets his criteria ar present and we attract exactly where we are
married 14 years H 42 bomb 2/07 IDLYA D final 3 /09 M ow D ow