I'm not one to analyze dreams, but I had one hell of a nightmare/angered dream Sunday night. It woke me to where I couldn't go back to sleep. It made for one long day yesterday. Anyway, in it I was having a heated confrontation with the OM and the W was defending him. I woke up when things were just getting too out of control. I guess I was too mad and angry to get comfortable to go back to sleep.
I think sometimes dreams are our subconscious way of dealing with things and it can be helpful to analyze them. Some are meant to be analyzed and can be life changing and others are rubbish. I also had one I mentioned in my thread that was quite unique. In another I kept having after bd, I was in a reoccurring nightmare of being in an out of control car w/someone else driving and would wake up after it crashed. The last time I had the dream it crashed into a cemetery, instead of waking up I got out and saw a man w/ two kids going to a grave. As I watched I realized it was me and the kids looking at w's tombstone. I haven't had those nightmares since; what a LBS message.
It is odd not getting things for bdays, etc. but you did the right thing giving the kids money to do it. In a roundabout way they know and appreciate it even if they can't acknowledge it.
Keep strong on the D front I know it is hard but we will get through it.
