East, in reading about your concerns about needing structure, I see someone who craves control and struggles greatly without it. I feel this about myself and am trying to work on it, so I don't say to be judgmental. I think my own need for control helped create the problems in my marriage. I wonder if you could let go of that rope a little bit too and get to the place where some uncertainty is ok and that we don't all have the answers to everything. Maybe that would make your GAL a little easier.
