Thanks for the kind words Cristy. Right now, that's what I really am focused on: being the best me I can be, and making sure our little girl has the best possible life.
Leahsue, I agree with you: I wish none of us had to be here. I'm doing my best to read and reply to other threads. It always amazes me how easy it is to see the "truth" in someone else's situation, yet difficult to understand your own.
I had a good day today. Made appointment with lawyer for next week for consultation. W actually had wanted to come with me to lawyer (we discussed doing this uncontested/agreed divorce) and when I explained that the lawyer rejected this idea due to conflict of interest (can't represent us both) she got upset, worried that I was out to screw her.
Work went well, and last night my daughter if we could go out to dinner and ice cream. I'm trying to keep my relationships with my in-laws (they're good people and I love them) so I invited MIL and niece to come with us. We had a good evening.
Backslid later this evening. Asked for MC. Said I had to make the offer one last time. I still plan on visiting the lawyer next week. Kaizen is right that I'm wishy washy and probably don't need a divorce, but I really don't see much in the way of alternative.
