Hey girl, I just read your long, newsy post, and I love the visuals I get of your little place! I sometimes wish we could put photos on this website, although I totally understand the danger in that- but I wish you could see my first bloom this morning on my recently planted oriental lily! It is gorgeous and to me represents new beginnings! Oh and the CHICKENS coming over into the yard. That made me truly smile, BIG. I'm hanging in there. Went to exercise class today, and came home and jumped straight in the pool with all clothes on. I hadn't done that in at least 20 years. (Still a bit chilly to be so rash, but hey, live a little, right?) I think you're wise to steer your thoughts away from him being in that house without you- mainly to guard your heart and not be moving forward setting yourself up with false hope or expectations. That's the safest way. And when you mention your dog- that melted my heart. I too, have a faithful companion- a 13 year old bichon, who some days was the only reason I got out of bed. When I cry, she just comes and lays her little paw right on my face. How people get through hard times without a dog, I don't know. Pure, unconditional love. I can't even think about life without her. You keep on keeping on, eat your warmed over pizza, watch some good TV, and take care of YOU. And keep checking in. I really care about how things are going for you.
M-60 H-51 M-14 years BD 12/26/16 S 1/1/17
"First the pain, then the rising." Glennon Doyle Melton
