WAW and the Big D

[Bdog37]

Journaling/venting

Good Day my friends! Yet another week (last week) were the EW gave up a few of her scheduled days with the kids to be with OM2. They went out of town together again so luckily I had my girls a few extra days!

What a great week I had with them as well and this week is going to be just as fun! Going to take them to see Beauty and the Beast tomorrow so I'm excited about that!! Over the weekend I invited their friends and some neighborhood girls over so my house was packed with kids lol. My little ones loved hosting so I will for sure be scheduling more play dates for them. All the parents thanked me as well for giving them a little time off so it was a win win sitch for everyone.

The Big D starts this Friday. I have sent pretty much all the info I could to my L so I believe he is prepared to get underway. I can honestly say that 4 months ago I would be crying while sharing this news, but today.....I couldn't be happier. I have detached so much from this woman and our M that I can't find anymore love for her. Believe me, I have searched. Since it was warm out over the weekend I did some Spring cleaning and found some old picture of us before we had kids. A lot of pictures where we were traveling, having a good time, and I didn't feel a shred of sadness. I actually threw them away and felt relieved after doing so. Like I was getting rid of her "ghost" in some ways.

I think a lot of this stems from the fact of who she has become. I really don't think I could ever love her again. Its weird that I feel this way. Especially since it hasn't been that long. I can't even remember the last time I shed a tear over her or caught myself thinking about her?? I don't know, but I am much more happier then I was a few short months ago.

I joined a cooking class and found out that I actually really enjoy cooking lol. I have taking a much bigger role in my daughter's after school programs and help out when I can. My oldest also joined Girl Scouts so I have been volunteering there every Tuesday. I am going to Wisconsin this weekend to go to my first Cubs game with friends. Early next month I plan on taking my girls to Indiana for a little road trip to visit some family. I'm back into reading books!! I used to love to read and just started Game of Thrones. I also started a small remodeling project in the house cause I'm hosting a painting party in a couple weeks. And somehow my younger sister wants me to fit in guitar lessons for my niece. On top of all this I take care of the girls 5 days a week, keep up on the house cleaning duties, do the grocery shopping, and work!

Think things are going really, really good right now for me. I am standing on my own 2 feet and it has never felt better. Funny, but the EW told me months ago that I would be the one to jump into a relationship as soon as she left. Well she is right and as corny as this sounds I did jump into a relationship... a relationship with myself! I respect myself too much to go back now so onward and upward!

I only hope that others on here can someday find peace with their own sitch as well. Good luck my friends!