Thank you guys very much. UR, you did tell me so. You can say it, hahaha! It is early, but it is a great thing so far.
He leaves me with no anxiety or uncertainty which just about every guy I have ever dated has. Because they were always so love avoidant, were done with R's, were in a selfish phase, or always wanted an "escape route" That is why I always think I felt the need to define a relationsip. That started with exH when we were dating. He would expect me to act like a girlfriend but would dare call me one for a year because it was his technicality when he met other girls or if something better would come along. The guys I dated following him did the same thing, honestly. I was there to fulfill there needs until something else came along. This one doesn't do that. he isn't waiting for anything "better" wants a future with someone, and he never makes me feel anxious in the relationship.
Every single morning since we went on our first date, I get a good morning text the moment he wakes up. He calls me everyday on my lunch. We never go to bed without saying goodnight. Those little things mean a lot to me. he makes plans with me in the future. As in, he invited me to a wedding in June. We will plan activities way down the road which means he doesn't have one foot out the door.
I think I never really realized what does mean something to me because if I wasn't getting it, well, then I made up an excuse and said it wasn't important to me when it really was. I was always in a long distance relationship or with someone who only saw me at his convienience. I thought I didn't want someone around much. Turns out I really do. I love having him around. I enjoy the time alone I do get, but I actually like to have him there. I still do things separately, as I went away with my girlfriends for the weekend, but I look forward to seeing him again when I get back.
We are partners. He helps me with something, I help him something. We will go out of our way for eachother. I've really never had this before.
I'm done, before I go on jinxing myself.
Your support, my good people, always has meant a lot to me over the years.
