WW, wlc, Waw or What?

[Btrow]

D8 and D10 told me yesterday that D3 cried for a long time Saturday night missing daddy even though she saw me for a couple of hours the day before. It hurts so much being absolutely powerless in giving my kids the loving two-parent family I believe they deserve. I keep telling myself that is HAS to have some sort of effect on XW. It probably doesn’t though… In the land of unicorns and rainbows, kids feelings don’t matter. Or at least, matter enough.

It won’t be long before D3, being so young, forget that we all used to live in the same house as a big happy family. At least D8 and D10 got to live a large part of their childhood that way, and somewhat I hope that when they grow up, they’ll remember how all of this influenced their own childhood, and do - or at least try to do - “the right thing” when they eventually are facing martial issues.

That’s one of my issues with XW. If she was unhappy, why didn’t she at least try to work with me on making things better. As she has said on two occasions now, it was good some of the time. Why not take that and try to expand those times.

One week away from the family meeting at the counselor. I’m worried how I’ll react when I hear my kids honest view on the whole situation. I know that XW will be cold and hard like a stone towards their emotions.

Just one more thing for now, I think XW believe I’m angry with her due to different views on how to handle the kids schedule. She appears to have no clue that I’m angry because of the betrayal. She must think that I believed the bull she wrote me back in January, that she didn’t have an affair towards the end of our M (with the OM she’s dating now).