Round 2

[Tryin2figuritout]

Feeling weak today. The detaching has been so helpful to me, but can't help but want to be there for her in my "awakened" self.

I know she doesn't want me (new or old) right now and I know that might not ever change. Just seems so stupid to me to sign up for half-time with our wonderful kids, financial stress, etc. when there are so many good things about us.

Ladies, please know I'm not downplaying the hurt that I've caused or dismissing it. I'm glad I'm seeing these issues and understanding my part in it. Whether it's my poor listening skills, handling my depression, etc., I'll be a better man for all this with or without the W.

It just plain stinks when you finally see it all, but there's nothing you can do to correct the past except through current actions. Hard to swallow the bitter pill of "too little, too late".

Path forward remains the same, but getting sucked under today.