WW with affair moved out 4+ weeks ago

[15Stang]

SBJ-
I do pray that my W will be released from her temptations and choices to sin. Unfortunately it seems like she is losing her battle..... heck it is possible she doesn't want to battle and actually enjoys what she is doing. I hope someday this will change.... for her sake, not necessarily for our M or R. It is sad to watch someone walk a path to destruction. I choose not to join her on this path. I will walk my own path. God may choose to have our paths cross again. But right now we are going in opposite directions. I'm ok with this decision and direction. Emotionally I'm not ok with it yet. Some days are better than others. But overall the emotional part is getting better.
I miss sharing my life with someone and enjoying the company of a spouse. One of my main goals in life was to be married and stay married. Right now this goal is on hold and it may start anew with another person. I have other goals that I'm still working towards and I can accomplish them without a spouse. That is where my focus is but it is really easy for my mind to drift back to my W. I do miss her but I choose to move on without her.
I spoke with the girls that met with her on Tuesday and she has become a person that I do not want to be with. The things she said and the decisions she is making are quite repulsive. I wish my emotions could understand and see the truth but they very much love the person I "thought" she was. I know deep down I still love her but I can't see any way that we could have a great marriage if she doesn't change who she has become. That change may happen but I will not be waiting around for it to happen. Maybe I'm still single when the change happens.... or maybe I'm not. I can only control my life and the choices I make. I do hope God intervenes in her life and leads her back to him.

Thanks for the encouragement.
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