Oh Coly, my heart hurts for you, I remember these days. I am trying to think back to what helped me, but honestly, I don't think many things helped very much. It's a grieving process.
One thing I do remember is that I would feel moments of happiness when I would pamper myself. Do things that you enjoy. I would get lost in a good book, get a massage, have lunch or dinner with a positive good energy friend, go to the beach.....think back to when it was just you and what you enjoyed doing.
Take it minutes at a time. Eventually it will go to hours then days where you aren't feeling that physical hurt. I remember an hour would go by and I would think, wow, I didn't think about H at all for a whole hour!
Also don't forget, it takes an amazing, loving, caring woman to stand for her marriage. That is you, feel that love and compassion for yourself.
Love and hugs M
Me 48 H 46 S 11 M 2004 BD 8/13 H moved out 2/15 -live in the present, enjoy the beauty around and within you, explore your new future-